I am not new to TSM. I tried it a few times in the past and due to extreme situations I just gave up. Now, I’m under medical supervision and am taking 100mg of NAL before drinking and 900 mg of Gabapentin at night. I’m drinking just about every day. Sometimes just a few light beers, sometimes several. I do feel that I could abstain easily now, however this social isolation is so depressing I’m finding myself reaching for a beer out of sheer boredom. Is this unusual or just a sign of the times?
Hi magnarider! I think it's pretty normal right now. The week before my social distancing started, I was way down in drinks. Then the next 3 weeks had an uptick. It's corrected itself this last couple of weeks, but I think the stress is getting to lots of us.
Welcome! I'm finding myself drinking every night again now since the quarantine. Less to do, no more kids carpools, no sports, just a lot of cooking and drinking. I need to be a lot more mindful but finding it difficult.
Welcome , you are in the right place . It’s not unusual ... we all seem to be struggling with drinking more due to boredom ... we will all get back on track . Keep posting , good and bad. This forum has been so helpful to me and I hope for you too .
magnarider, I think if some evil genius had sat down and decided to come up with a way to hamper the progress of everyone on this board using TSM to treat their AUD, he would have come up with this exact situation!!
1. Stuck at home 2. Isolated 3. Bored 4. Stressed
It's like the perfect storm. So I agree with everyone above who says that it's normal to be struggling a bit more right now. Try to be patient and stick with the program. Better days ahead for all of us, and these stressors that are slowing down progress will eventually start to recede. I wish you all the best. TSM really works, just stick with it!
I am totally feeling your pain magnarider. I was beginning to feel the aversion to alcohol and get my numbers down.... and now this. I'm back up to Christmas time levels. (40ish drinks a week). Like one long holiday where theres a great excuse to drink. I have absolutely no good advice but can only say, I understand. pauline told me that staying compliant can be hard for some and I find that the only easy part so that's one plus I guess.
Totally normal, as I understand in the UK home drinking levels have gone up quite a bit and not just drinking, I don;t think, I've heard a lot of people doing a lot of boredom induced 'guilt' behaviours, more sweets, more video games, more porn, less exercise. Its tough. Don't be so hard on yourself you don't sound like you're doing too badly and as long as you're compliant the method will still be working.
Post by magnarider on Apr 28, 2020 17:21:05 GMT -5
I abstained yesterday. I’ve been taking Naltrexone for several months now and my doc bumped me up to 100mg along with 900mg of Gabapentin before bed. I’ve gone weeks without drinking, and I think I’d be much further along the road to pharmacological extinction were it not for the whole Pandemic thing. Living in the desert of West Texas is isolating enough when you have nowhere to go and all day to get there. I’m on my 4th light beer. I might have one more, but that’s about it. I guess it’s the NAL at work. Drinking isn’t the same anymore, and I guess that’s why we’re all here right?
Yesterday was the first day that restaurants could open at 25% capacity in Texas. Bars could reopen as long as you ordered food. I took my NAL, and proceeded to binge drink over several hours. At times like this I get so discouraged. As mentioned earlier, I have gone on and off TSM about 4 times, however this time I’m 6 months in and doing it right. I think my biggest hurdle is just a total lack of social interaction. I should mention I have been drinking for over 50 years and being Italian/Irish there’s a lot of AUD in my family. I can’t help but be concerned that I’m one of the unfortunate 20% that do not respond. I am definitely in need of encouragement.
I think you've already responded and this is just one of the rebounds that's very typical of TSM and getting your brain to shift a behavior in general. If you look back at your trip up to your maximum drinking levels, that most likely was a zigzag path too. You were abstaining and lately you've started drinking alone again, but social drinking is a different environment that many say leads to a different drinking experience. This all seems par for the course to me, magnarider.
magnarider, it took me 16 months to reach extinction, and at 6 months I was still feeling doubtful and worried, too. Don't despair. The road may be longer than we wish, but it's worth it in the end. Patience + compliance = success. You can do it! I'm rooting for you.
Post by magnarider on May 10, 2020 20:16:04 GMT -5
Hi Pauline, I just abstained for four days I drank a little on the heavy side yesterday and very light today. I always take my meds as directed. I know I’m abstaining during the week, as I have lots to do now that the world is slowly embracing limited social interaction. I’ve been thinking for a while that I might be closer to extinction than I realized, because my drinking now seems more willfull than the result of a compulsion. I know I’m making progress. I also know I won’t quit, which it what it takes after all.
magnarider , here's something that magicklubee posted on marko 's thread the other day, and I find it so interesting and well-stated. I bolded the parts I think are particularly helpful:
"Hi Marko. I've been taking Nal for 4 years and just returned to these boards the other day. I've been down the path of "is this really helping? why am I taking this pill and still drinking so much?" I quit taking it twice when I fooled myself into thinking that it was no different. Both times I quickly learned that it is different and then I had to start all over again. Like Nikita said it does the heavy lifting for you and imo takes away the addiction part. It's up to you to take away the habit part. It's not a magic bullet for most of us and requires commitment and effort. Basically I look at is as nal giving me a choice. It levels the playing field and gives me freedom from addiction. We have to decide what to do with that freedom every day. I found that doing all the things that is advised really helps: practice mindful drinking, track your drinks (I found that using the app on my phone to track drinks as I'm drinking is really helpful and makes me very mindful of how much time it takes me to finish a drink), come here for advice and tell your story, etc. It's changing your habits and your mindset that are the challenging part but it's not impossible. I posted my story in the progress section if you're interested."
Just thought I'd share that great post...thanks magicklubee for writing it out! I think you've captured some critically important distinctions...especially the concept of addiction vs. habit, which are two different things.
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