Like others (I suspect) I've held back from claiming PE because, well, what is it, will it last, and do I want to tempt fate? But I think it's important for people researching TSM for themselves to see people posting here.
So, I don't have cravings, I don't have triggers, I don't have a desire to drink. I'll have a glass of something in celebration (with nal) but it doesn't lead anywhere and is a 'meh' experience. I don't miss drinking, I don't feel anything is 'missing'. So I reckon that's PE. I could go on to build the addiction again but I am free from it right now so I'm calling it.
hobnob, great post!! I think this is wonderful. You are posting honestly, and I'm sure there is a little bit of anti-climax once you finally "get there." But it sure sounds like PE to me. I suspect I'll be following you in calling it fairly soon. But of course the little voices in our heads keep questioning...is this really it? Am I really there?
You listed it out, wisely: no cravings, no triggers, no desire to drink. The "meh" when you do drink. Yup, PE in a nutshell, seems to me.
Did you feel a sense of accomplishment in posting in this thread? You SHOULD!! You did it, you saved your own life. Congratulations, hobnob. What a miracle. And you are very kind and generous to recognize that it's important for others to read the PE posts from those who have gotten there. This provides a lot of hope and inspiration, and I think your matter-of-fact assessment of it is very honest and realistic. It lets us know what to expect.
Thanks everyone. I didn't want to drift off from here without adding myself as a positive outcome for new (or old) TSMers to see. Its a weird thing because it felt far more dramatic a change when I first stopped losing control than it did when I finally stopped craving alcohol. It seemed really gradual a move from controlled to 'done'. By the time I got 'here' it felt a bit like I'd never been 'there'. Now I know I have a brain which is vulnerable to this addiction I won't let alcohol near it without the protection of nal. Too much at stake. Great news about others nearing the end too 😁
hobnob Congratulations! Thank you for expressing what was going through your mind as you decided to "call it". I cannot, at this time, imagine what that must be like to be at that place and be confident that PE has been reached. But, I know many have gotten to "call it" and I cannot wait until my time comes (I hope, hope, hope!!). I'm so happy for you and appreciate the comments regarding respecting the alcohol and always taking the nal.
Last Edit: Feb 27, 2020 13:18:53 GMT -5 by happyday
501(c)3 Disclaimer: The C Three Foundation is a not-for-profit, charitable organization formed under Section 501(c)3 of the U.S. Internal Revenue Code. Donations to the C Three Foundation are tax-deductible as charitable contributions for US Federal income tax purposes. There are no donation limits to the C Three Foundation.
CONTENT IS INFORMATION ONLY AND NOT ADVICE
Legal Disclaimer Notice: The information provided on this site is for informational purposes only and is not intended as a substitute for advice from your physician or other health care professional or any information contained on or in any product label or packaging. You should not use the information on this site for diagnosis or treatment of any health problem or for prescription of any medication or other treatment. You should consult with a healthcare professional before starting any diet, exercise or supplementation program, before taking any medication, or if you have or suspect you might have a health problem. You should not stop taking any medication without first consulting your physician.