I'm very concerned because my drinks shot up to 61 this week. The week before I was at 38. I know it's the holidays but two days I only waited about 20 minutes after my pill. The rest of the days I was compliant. Could this be the cause or is it just because of the holidays? I'm on week six of TSM. Today I upped my dose to 75 because I'll be going to another family event where there will be wine and I already know I will be drinking. It almost feels like the pill isn't working anymore. The previous week's I've noticed I was able to drink very slowly but this week I'm back to my old ways. Any advice would be great. Or just some encouragement! I'm not giving up. I can't wait to be able to visit family at Easter time and be drinking way less. I know it will happen!
I'll try the white claw today. I think because I'm off from work and starting way earlier in the day the numbers are much higher. Even though I don't want to go back to work on Monday, I know it will be good for me!
Hang in there, mkateo. Have you read the "bible" of TSM, a book called The Cure for Alcoholism by Dr. Roy Eskapa? It really helped me understand all the ins and outs of this method, and during times when I felt lost or unsure if I was making progress, I found it helpful to look through the book again for encouragement. You can Google and find a free PDF download very quickly. I wish you well in the New Year!! Stick with us...this forum will cheer you on every step of the way. :-)
I came home from my visit with family and switched to the White Claw. BIG difference. My number over the holiday was 58 drinks. This week I close at 39 (Part of the week I was still on vacation) so it would have been lower. I can only really drink 3 white claws which is less than a bottle and half of wine! Last night I went to dinner and bought a bottle of wine with a friend. We both only had one glass and I took the bottle home. I have NEVER done that. I ALWAYS finish a bottle of wine! I'm very excited and hopeful. I am on week 9 and still have a long way to go though. I still have cravings and can't wait to leave work and pour a drink. I haven't had an alcohol free day in atleast a year. Baby steps!
Hey there! I had a really fun weekend, but drank too much. I had a going away party for my best friend who is in the navy. I probably drank about 10 drinks although I drank so much I lost count. I spent Sunday EXTREMELY hungover. So bad that I needed to drink some more wine to feel better. Not happy about that. I'm already at 22 drinks and have 3 more days to go. I am also divorced and haven't dated anyone in 2 years. I ran into a dad I have a crush on at an after school function. I was tipsy and I talked too much so I am feeling embarrassed about that too.... (all of the drinking was after Nal and an hour wait, of course)
However... it's Monday and I know I can go home and take it easy and not over drink. I wish I could fast forward and be 6 months into TSM. I can't wait for alcohol free days.
Aw, hang in there, mkateo. I know how it feels, I really do. I remember those days very well. But the good news is that you WILL see improvement. It takes time, yes, but you have the right perspective. You know you need to be patient. The rewards will come...even if they are slow. Meanwhile, try not to be hard on yourself. You are doing the very best you can with the tools that are available to you.
Thank you, Pauline. What a relief to be able to admit out loud (even if it's to strangers online) that I drink too much. Like I have said before, no one seems concerned because most of my friends and family are drinkers too. Except I know for sure I drink way heavier and more often (every day) than they do. So excited for the day that WILL COME where we are together and everyone is noticing that I am hardly drinking anymore. I have total faith in this method and this is because of you, Pauline, and Susannah, and everyone else that I have been reading about over the past 2 months (I don't know how to tag names... to make the name come up in blue?) Anyways, before TSM, I knew I could never attend AA, being a single mom (I'm 39 with 2 girls, ages 9 and 10). How do I go to meetings every night with 2 kids? What would I do with them? I also knew I could never white knuckle it. Tried many, many times and couldn't go more than 3 days. I basically decided I was going to live a shorter life And I hated myself for not being able to choose a healthy life and more time with kids over alcohol. But I know now, that this is not all my fault. I am also lucky to have a doctor who prescribed me a whole years worth of Naltrexone! She wanted me to try vivitrol. Anyone ever tried? If I hit 6 months and I am not satisfied with my numbers, maybe I will give that a try. SO NICE TO KNOW THERE ARE OTHER OPTIONS. I have one friend who also struggles with drinking too much and I am trying to get the courage to let her know about this. Thank you again for your replies!
It sounds to me like you have a clear perspective of where you are and where you want to be mkateo, and I'm sure you'll get there. (Just put the @ in front of the name and it'll pop up blue.) The days when the cravings win really get me down too. And the day after sucks worse than ever--maybe because we've got our eyes on the prize and it seems to be getting farther away and not closer and our frustration makes the hangover worse. Three steps forward and one step back. I've felt so sick on those days. In a way though that helps too because it's gotten to the point where the bad of hangover is a little bit stronger than the good of the memory of the pre-Nal alcohol high, and gives me hope that extinction is coming--if that makes sense. Before, no amount of hangover would keep me from wanting to get wasted again.
Today, I'm cautiously optimistic. I hit a new low last week and so far so good this week. Slowing down my drinking by seltzering my wine has really helped. I can make it last an hour that way--and the drink looks so good. Like a giant glass of rose. Don't know why it's working, but it is.
mkateo and susannah, here's the funny thing. When you first start posting here on the forum, we all seem like "strangers online," like Mkateo says. But in short order, this little cyber-group will become a powerful support system for you! I feel like some of the folks I've met here have truly been instrumental in saving my life. I'm so glad you are here. This is a really safe place where we can all share our fears, hopes, frustrations, etc. I think humans are social beings and we need the support of other people--but with alcohol issues there is so much shame and stigma, so sometimes it's hard to seek out that support in the "real" world. This forum is just the ticket.
susannah, good move with the seltzer water. I love how you are enjoying the visual aspect of the drink and that it's slowing you down.
mkateo, you should be proud that you are now doing TSM, because it's going to make you so much more present for your girls. They are young now, but one day you can tell them how hard you fought for your health so that you could be there for them and live a long healthy life. They will be so proud of you!!
pauline , thank you for your encouraging words. When I went to the doctor to ask for Naltrexone, I typed up exactly what I was going to say. I cried the whole way through. I actually had 2 glasses of wine in me as I was asking for help. I am so glad she agreed. (She still recommended I go away somewhere). That is not an option for me! The next step was taking the meds and remaining compliant. Talking to you all is the final piece I need to stick with this program. Last night I only had 3 drinks, that's about half as usual. How many months did it take you to get your drinks down into the teens? I can't wait for those days!
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