I've actually written a lot about my depression/anxiety post-TSM/alcohol on my blog. It is something that I continue to struggle with even 5 months after being AF.
I'm not currently on any anti-depressants so I can't speak to that in terms of alcohol urges and honestly I'm trying to avoid them if possible (it made me feel like a zombie, which I needed at the time, but I am trying to avoid now), but I did just watch this from Annie Grace and Adi Jaffe that was a bit elucidating on the effects of alcohol and the brain.
One thing I have learned about the Sinclair method, is that it is a great catalyst for getting you to a point where you can stop drinking, but it does not help you address all the underlying reasons you started to drink too much in the first place. I didn't start drinking because I overtly believed there was something wrong with me. I did it for various reasons, but a lot of it was feeling like I was having fun, letting loose, etc. Once I stopped drinking, there was a lot of deep, dark, hard, emotional work that I have been slowly trying to unravel, mostly around social anxiety and insecurities I never really dealt with growing up.
From the groups that I participate in outside of this, I am not the only one who has these feelings.
Therapy, meditation, self-care, group work, educating myself on the effects of alcohol, etc have all been essential in my recovery. I would say if you have an interest in therapy, try to find someone who has dealt with addiction/alcohol/substance abuse.
Please continue to reach out when you are struggling and congrats on 3 months, that's amazing.
My blog has a lot of resources scattered through out it, so feel free to look through there but if you aren't feeling like you want to slog through 3 years of self work, feel free to ask, and I will try to remember to log back in and point you in a good direction.
Thank you Tiffany. It helps me a great deal to know that others experienced what I am feeling.
I still feel even only after 3 months, my affair with alcohol is done, done, done. I have no interest in it whatsoever. I really have demonstrated no willpower over the years, so that fact that I am still not drinking tells me the extinction is truly complete. It feels like a lot more than 3 months have passed. Obviously there is more work to be done however.
I will definitely look at your blog and the link you provided. I'm not entirely sold on therapy but I am not closed-minded so that may change. I prefer to keep relatively private, which I understand may not be the best step forward for me right now.
Having fun, letting loose were for sure reasons I drank. But when alcohol failed to deliver that experience, I didn't stop trying. That went on for many years. I do believe that my drinking was only habit and no underlying condition propelled me into it, but it will take some time to be sure that I am being honest with myself. My alcoholic father left me with a hereditary predisposition to alcohol abuse that I think accounts for much of my experience.
If you do decide to do therapy (which I highly encourage) might I suggest something like teletherapy or something like Betterhelp for therapy? Betterhelp can be a bit hit or miss, but if you are wanting to be in a place that you feel more comfortable (home, car, etc) teletherapy is a good way to go.
I have a hard time getting motivated to get out of my house to do it, so it's been a really great way to meet regularly with someone to talk through my frustrations and also to get a subjective perspective.
There could be numerous factors for the depression as well: diet, environment, exercise. It may be worth exploring what else has change besides the not drinking. That may give you some clues.
Hi cath. Sorry for the delay I don't get notified on new posts.
Thanks for asking - I started Fetzima July 4th but I think I can expect to wait 4-6 weeks before any intended effects are felt. A few weeks away still so nothing much to report yet. I feel marginally improved since this time last month, but that could even be attributed to my body adjusting to a non-alcohol existence - which I expect to be an ongoing improvement. Still pretty flat overall, but seldom blue - that's a positive.
Getting some light exercise (40 mins brisk walking) but that's about it for trying anything else so far.
Product update Tuesday! Fetzima was awful for headaches, testicle aches, and all sort of other problems below the belt. I do NOT need that in my life.
So AD round three: I Switched to Abilify 4mg last week. So far so good. I don't feel the effects exactly - I just feel closer to normal. Either I do not need the drugs anymore because my natural disposition is improving, or the Abilify works. Wonder how I will know when to stop taking them?
Less time actually - after a week I feel pretty much normal now Joe. Downright light-hearted at times.
The fact that there's a laundry-list of side effects and that it's labelled an "anti-psychotic" does have me concerned I'll admit. But Dr advised anything negative or positive would show up quickly. I've had only positive and 2mg dose is fairly low so I'm good for now.
Post by standupsister on Dec 31, 2018 10:59:10 GMT -5
Yes. I’m having severe depression after having been on TSM for two months now. I did have the depression before that but it seems to be getting worse. (I’m almost completely alcohol-free since starting TSM.) I’ve been on an antidepressant for about 15 years and one year ago it seemed to stop working or cause a different kind of depressed feeling and the doctor changed my medication from Prozac to Lexapro. Like I said though, the depression right now is really bad. Some days better than others. It’s interesting, what you said about the dopamine. I’m wondering, though, if alcohol was just our way of coping with the depression so that now we need to find new coping methods -? Have you talked to your TSM doctor about the depression? I’d like to know if it’s common. I’ll ask mine as well.
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