Post by calijohn on Oct 23, 2018 12:45:41 GMT -5
So, I figured its time to start a progress page of my own. I've been drinking since my teens, throughout college, and through adulthood. I'm 49 and as the name implies, I live in California. Mostly a binge drinker, yet I'd have a beer or two with dinner/evening during the week. I really started drinking heavier when one of my employees bought me a bottle of scotch for Christmas. I loved it and really got into various scotches, finally settling on Jameson Irish Whiskey. I liked the effect it gave me without having to pee every five minutes because of beer. As my marriage went down the tubes, I found drinking was a good escape and for years I got drunk each night.
I knew I was headed down the Alcoholism road, but wasn't ready to stop. Then, like switch flipped in my head, I would get withdrawals every day. Minor, but I didn't know what was happening. Doctor didn't know either, yet in the back of my head, I thought, if I just stop drinking this would all go away. Then I had moderate withdrawals each morning... dry heaves, shakes, the whole nine yards. I never drank during the day, as I knew that would be a fast ticket out of my career. I found the Hams.cc website and tried to taper and moderate. But it didn't work. One Friday after work, I took a shot of whiskey and all my symptoms went away.. "Oh shit! I'm really physically addicted." Like a good addict I rationalized that if I can make it through the weekend and not be sick Monday morning, I can continue. Well, Monday rolled around and I was quite sick. This was in July of 2016. First call was to my boss. 2nd call was to my Dad (35 years AA sober). 3rd call was to a rehab facility. They had a bed for me for Wednesday. I went and it was fantastic! I felt free finally. I stayed for 5 days and tried to learn as much as I could. Then I did a few months of Intensive Outpatient Program. This had me sober for 6 months, until I decided to dabble again. Well, it didn't take me long to return to my old drinking habits. I found that as a single guy, not drinking was socially difficult. This lead me into AA. I had a sponsor and worked the steps (stopped at step 8). But I was still in a routine of sober for a week or two, then boozed for a weekend. I couldn't seem to break the cycle. It sucked. I had heard about TSM + Nal, but I'm not a fan of meds, even though I was on campral.
Anyways, after watching the videos and reading everything I could get my hands on, I made a purchase from India. That was 14 weeks ago. I'm now in the middle of week 10 and have been mostly compliant. I saw results immediately, then rebounded, yet I do have a downward trend which is good. Nal + TSM works! Thank God!